LONG I need help bad though 10 POINTS?

OK, first things first. get rid of your boyfriend, the one who beats you up. You dont deserve him, he clearly doesnt love you and you dont love him. Have you told anyone he beats you? because this is serious. once you've got rid of him, i think you should try and go see a psychitrist about your suiside and self harming problem. It'll give you someone to talk to who you can trust and they will help you through all your troubles because it sounds like you've got serious depression. Once that is all in order then maybe go see this other guy. it'll be hard and awkwade and very upsetting but i think you two need to talk. find out if he is going to stay with his wife and baby and see if he's happy. DONT get into a physical relationship with him because you'll be hurting his family, him (due to the stress) and yourself (because you know he's not yours). If he'll leave his wife for you then good but make sure he does before you start a relationship if not then you'll have to move on. sorry. there will be other guys like him, your only 16 and have your whole life a head of you. Consentrating on other things will help but it will be hard and very painful but time will eventually heal. Make sure you dont neglect your friends or education. talk to people and dont suiside again please. it solves nothing and hurts everyone (friends family ect). you must talk to someone and focus on yourself